Memory is a funny thing.
You ask if I had a good memory today.
I laugh and say “What’s a bad memory?”
“I have plenty I could tell you” you say
But I sigh and tell you “I mean a memory bank.”
“Not each little snippet of pain or love or hate,
or friends or enemies or films or days out.”
I meant to say memory bank.
You say “The memory bank is bad in old people”
I shake my head and tell you that is not the case;
“Their memory banks are good, they are simply closing down.”
“They’ve found that their lives have been too fulfilled.”
“They have too many memories;
So they push some between the little bars at the bank”
“That is strange.” You say.
I chuckle to myself and reply “This may seem strange,
But the memories will come back now and again
as they pushed back through the bars.”
“Are you not scared of old age if you think this is true?”
You are beginning to question my sanity and trust me so am I
But I feel like sanity should be contained in another poem,
At another time.
So I continue to tell you that when the memory bank starts to close,
It is peaceful.
And because you control the memory bank,
It will let you keep hold of the firsts and the sweetest of memories
And block out the mean ones of war and hatred and suffering and death.
Because face it:
No one wants to think of that when they are too close to their end.
I’ve scared you away but trust me, dear friend ,
You will forget this poem.
And how it was spoken.
And my voice.
Because it means nothing to you.